Penned Down #31: A Mother-In-Law Who Was Never Like One

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

Pardon me for this blog post will be somehow written with emotional state, and a long one. I always strict myself from pouring my all out emotions when it comes to public medium interaction; for I knew a lot of consequences will be involved later. It is just this time, I feel the needs to let out most things from my chest. For this is the very first time I truly feel the loss of somebody I love.

Until today, I still have a cry when I realize that Mak is really gone. No, I never cry for somebody's death. I did not even cry when my granny passed away when I was a teenager. I would only shed tears when I feel emotionally abused or being treated unfairly. The only death event I cried was when Puteh my cat left me in 2010. That was all. That was it.

But whenever I think of Mak, I could never spare the tears. With every drop I shed, it comes with every regret. And it's always huge, never little. Too many things were unfulfilled, thus left me with the biggest remorse. I was trapped with disappointment over things I have done and not done towards Mak in those four years as a daughter-in-law to her. I have totally disappointed her. But I cannot make it right, now.

'Mak during my solemnization'

The most saddest thing is I finally got a job offer after three years of unemployment only a day after Mak was gone. I was merely a day late to inform her the long awaited news which she had always wait for. I always knew the fact that I got a job would eventually change her day, and her health condition. At least, that was one thing I sure could cheer her up.

Either way she might get better or not, I knew the news that The Hubster and I would finally have a stable life would surely ease her worries before she closed her eyes. But I was too late. I took for granted for all her wish and feelings. I thought I was doing good things for her all these while by keeping shut of every worrying stuffs but all I did was simply drifting her away from us. How I regret about everything right now.

Knowing Mak in such short term, I can say that she is the most graceful lady in every way. She never made me feel I was a stranger to the family ever since. She let me do all things in the house according to my way, like cooking and cleaning. Never she had raised her voice or make me felt uneasy during our stay in Klang. She was way beyond the typical Malays mother-in-law.

'During my convocation day when I was still engaged to The Hubster'

She would never differentiate particular treatment between her grown-up children or interfere with anything deemed to be personal. The thing with Mak is she would never take credits for anything she did like cooking. She would point the credits to anyone else. And she would beamed with proud to tell anyone if her daughter or her daughters-in-law were to cook or bake anything in the house. That was Mak I knew.

During our last Eid together, I was surprised that she gave me a bracelet and a fabric for Kurung. What made me sad was she had been keeping the gifts for me since last year's Eid when The Hubster and I could not make it to get home at that time (which was unfortunately regretted). Never I knew they were the last things she had to give me before she left us.

The last time I met her after Eid was a week before she left us. The Hubster and I took our chance to visit Mak in hospital. At that time, Mak was already looking weak and thinner than usual. For the first time, she was giving me advices in front of others which she had never done before. I was actually quite hurt but never I thought that was the only opportunity for her to convey her last words to me.

'The last picture with Mak'

During our last meeting, I remember how I hugged her tighter than usual. I even kissed her repeatedly. Never it crossed my mind that it was the last time I got to kiss her when she was still breathing. But still, I thank to Allah SWT for I got the chance to bath her body on my own laps during the funeral along with my SILs. I was grateful to have the chance to dedicate my last deed to Mak in her final moment.

I miss you, Mak. And I hope I had your forgiveness. I know you are now resting in peace just like Allah SWT has promised to His obliged servants. I could not stop thinking of you and I am so sorry for everything. I am sorry I did not get the chance to make you happy with my personal achievement and yet a grandchild to give. My only gift for you now is doa's with holy Quran recites. I always love you, Mak. Will always be.

Al-Fatihah to my beloved Mak Umi Kalsom.

Penned Down #30: Umi Kalsom Abdul Rahman

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'1952 to 2013'

I am still finding words to convey this news on this blog. I kept writing but deleting them for I could not find the right way to start this post. Anyway, this is my side of story. It was nearing midnight to our 4th anniversary when suddenly The Hubster got a call from his brother. The conversation was only a minute quick and when he hung up, I asked him why. His face was all confused.

"Mak passed away," He answered in short; still with a blurring face.

I jumped out of the bed; trembled and all cold.

"Pack our clothes," He ordered and started taking out our bags.

At that instant, I felt like choking and gasping for the air. I ran to Mom's room and knocked her door like mad. Told her what happened and Mom started crying. I then ran back to our room and packed our stuffs randomly. My mind was all blank. I could not think of any proper way to pack our bags like I usually did. I just stuffed in anything I saw in the closet.

While packing things, I asked him to call anyone in Klang just to reconfirm the news. He called the house and that was it; Mak has really passed away just a few minutes before. We quickly grabbed our bags and headed to Klang at 12 midnight of our anniversary. I did not cry back at home; so did The Hubster. Maybe we were too shocked.

Only after we were just leaving the town, we finally realized that Mak is now gone. Both of us burst into tears. It was my first time to see The Hubster broke down and sobbed like a child since we have been together. He was never a cry person; so did I. I only cry when I feel abused or being treated unfairly. I guess I never cried for anyone's death since I live for 27 years, except for Puteh my cat.

We reached my PIL's house at 2.30 a.m, only to see lots of people were wandering at the house porch. My both hand and feet felt numb instantly; I did not have any courage to step inside. I hold tight to The Hubster's shirt while we walked. It felt like a dream to see the covered body of Mak lay down in the middle of living hall. Mak has really gone.

'Taken during our reception in Klang of December 27th'

It was my first time to hug Ayah ever since I was married to The Hubster. It hurt me to see how Ayah was sniveling all night long while he recited the Quran beside Mak's body. During their 42 years of marriage, he had never left Mak alone when he was traveling. They were never being apart for more than 24 hours. It could be said that Mak and Ayah were the most loving couple I have ever seen in life.

Praise be to Allah SWT, for Mak's funeral was all smooth and quick. Alhamdulillah, I was given the opportunity to bath her for the first and last time. It is just that I can't believe that tomorrow marks the 7th day since Mak has left all of us. Until this very minute, I still have a feeling that Mak's death is all dream. This is one loss too deary to everyone in the family.

Al-Fatihah to my late mother-in-law, Hajah Umi Kalsom.

Penned Down #29: The Official Four

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'December 12th, 2009'

“And among His signs is that He created mates for you from yourselves that you may find comfort and repose in them, and He put between you love and compassion; most surely there are signs in this for a people who reflect.” Surah Ar-Rum [30:21]

Happy 4th Anniversary! XOXO

Penned Down #28: The Adolescence Secret

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

It seems to me the latest social media trend amongst the youngsters are eating them out eventually. Not to mention those who involved with public display affection through their own uploaded videos (which I supposed there were for personal keepsakes which got leaked thereafter by trusted person). No?

I personally think their brainless actions are resulted from immature critical thinking, but what really bothers me are tonnes of inappropriate reactions from public itself. Reading those too-much comments dropped by people who hold the same religious faith like me are simply devastating. Are they rightful enough or greater themselves to judge another human being? Sigh.

I gotta admit some of the uploaded videos are beyond inappropriate; maybe because most of them are underage children. But come on man, by doing all contemptible acts through what you write in the comment box is much annoying. I guess these kind of people get their pleasure by bashing somebody's mistake; only not to realize their acts are more despicable than the one they bashed.

I am not taking sides but as far as I concern, everybody has their own hitherto secrets. Be it something ashamed we did when we were much younger or immature acts which we hope to keep them in secret, everybody entitles to a mistake. As in those children's cases, too bad their secrets got leaked to merciless internet public.

'Back when we were youngsters. Bahaha'

Teenagehood is actually a fun stage of experimentation and exploring things. This is when we are going to do the opposite to try it out and know for ourselves. No? Curiosity and rebellious streak will pop out most of the times. But always be careful in exploring things, for later on it will lead to consequences that might be a lifetime of suffering.

Always remember dear people, for love and sex is never a same thing. There is no such thing of giving in either two just to have the other twos. Embrace sexuality only when we are fully aware of what we are doing; which it should be in a marriage from Islam perspective. It's because the curiosity from when we were younger is still intact albeit it could be quite dangerous if not properly handled.

For adults out there, we sure have been through their phases. We know how love could turn somebody haywired. And some of us used to be like them before; doing things we were not proud of and such. But it doesn't mean we can abuse their mistakes with cruel words. As humans, we must advise others towards what is good but there is always a proper way to do this.

So handle everything with care, people!

Scent of Sentiment #4: Floods in Malaysian East Coast

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'Temerloh, Pahang'

'Kuantan, Pahang'

'Dungun, Terengganu'

'Chukai, Kelantan'

'Segamat, Johore'

Residents on Malaysian East Coast suffer from flooding almost yearly due to monsoon rains that usually last from late November to February. But recent severe flooding has forced over 40,000 people to evacuate. I personally wish for everyone's safety. Let's keep our prayers to all flood victim, survivor and rescue parties involved. Between, all pictures are courtesy of Google.com.

Kindly click here to make affordable donations within your budget range to the flood victims in Malaysian East Coast.

Just a friendly reminder to you and I, people!

Reviews From Heart #4: Anugerah Quran's Pencuci Muka

Disclaimer: This is not a paid post. Everything is based on my honest and personal experience in using the reviewed product with no influences of any third party. Opinion may change from time to time depending on future event.

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

I have been trying a few products under Anugerah Quran's label before I encounter this face cleanser. I must admit, the idea of using Al-Quran's verses and selected doa's as part of the ingredients have caught my attention. I mean, what could goes wrong with something blended with holy Quran ritual. No? So let's see my honest review here.

'Presenting; Anugerah Quran's Face Cleanser for Troubled Skin. Courtesy of Anugerah Quran.com'

Here's to What it Claims (taken from website):

Formula unik Pencuci Muka Anugerah yang menggabungkan herba tradisional dan kaedah rawatan Islam membantu menghilangkan kekotoran dan sel-sel mati supaya kulit anda kembali ceria dan bertenaga. Sesuai untuk kulit bermasalah.

This unique formula of Anugerah Cleanser combines both traditional herb and Islamic treatment methods. It helps to remove dirt and impurities in skin so that your skin will glow and be healthy again. Suitable for troubled skin.

Here's to the No Gimmick Ingredient (taken from website):

Air nyah ion (Deionized Water), Glyserin (Glycerin), Polisorbat 20 (Polysorbate 20), Ekstrak sireh (Betel Leaves Extract), Ekstrak buah pinang (Areca Fruits Extract), Ekstrak inai (Henna Extract), Ekstrak avokado (Avocado Extract), Vitamin E.

with:

Al-Quran 30 juz's verses, Ruqyah Verse, Ruqyah Jibril Verse, Ruqyah Nabawiyyah Verse, Kursi Verse, Selawat Nabi dan doa syifa’, Selawat Tafrijiyyah, Pendinding al-Muawwizat, Saiyidul istighfar (penghulu taubat), Ayat pembatal sihir dan pukau, Ayat penawar sihir dan pukau, Ayat penawar seribu guna, Ayat pendamaian, Ayat pelembut hati, Doa penghindar gangguan syaitan, Doa penghindar hasutan syaitan, Doa bakar jin dan syaitan, Doa pengasih, Doa seri wajah, Doa pelaris perniagaan, Doa penyejuk, Doa atasi gangguan tidur, Doa atasi cemburu & hasad dengki, Doa pendinding, Doa penerang hati, Solat hajat.

'Courtesy of Anugerah Quran.com'

Here's to What I Personally Think:

This is currently my favorite face cleanser for now! It sure beats my former favorite of MooGoo's Milk Wash due to its soothing property ingredient. The kind of thing that leaves your face with cooling mint sensation feel, you know? My whole face feels so refreshed each time I am having my face-washing routine.

The best of all, you could definitely see the reduction in acne formation. It really dries up your pustule and cystic pimples beside minimizes the redness and irritation level underneath the skin. So far, this is the best cleanser for my acne problem, yet. 

However, too much washing would cause your skin to be slightly drier so never wash your face with this cleanser more than twice a day. So basically I am now stuck between MooGoo's Milk Wash for moisturizing effect and this cleanser for drying up my oily skin.

Well, there is no doubt I will rate this face cleanser a five out of five if it doesn't dry up my skin. Plus, the 40g content is just enough to be used for nearly two weeks so I had to buy two bottles for a month supply. I really hope Anugerah Quran will come out with bigger bottles in future.

Anyhow to Muslims, it is best to use this cleanser by reciting Al-Fatihah during your foaming time. Leave it for approximately two to three minutes before you rinse it. Say your Selawats while rinsing it then you are good to go.

• Texture & Smell: Transparent liquid with barely fragrance smell. A refreshing cleanser yet.
• Foaming Level: Moderate. 
• Moisturizing Level: Moderate.
• Irritation Level: Minimal.
• Visible Result: Skin feels soothed and really fresh with its cooling mint sensation. It feels much softer than usual.
• Acne Reduction: Pustule and cystic acne are reduced in visible number.
• Cleansing Effect: Good for light makeup.
• Overuse Effect: Might dry out skin a little bit. Remember to wash your face not more than three times a day.
• Retail Price: RM20.00
• Content: 40g
• Where To Purchase: All Jamu outlets and certain pharmacies
• Online Purchase: Available Here 
• Repeat Purchase: Definitely.
• Rating: ★★★★☆ 

Next review will be on Anugerah Quran's UV Foundation, people!

Penned Down #27: A Life Unsubscribed

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

Sometimes I just wonder of how some people could simply judge the others with no sense of relevancy. Argumentation based on their own points of view for matters that are out of their hands are just plain pathetic to me. Most of all, trying to reasoning with these kind of people is one hell of a job.

Let me clarify something, dear people. Instead of pointing fingers at things you are not certain, try to put yourselves into that person's shoes. Feel what he/she is experiencing at the comfort of their senses, not yours. Then only you can start judging that person based on what you feel about what he/she is going through.

Let me bring my case for example. It is true that my life is not as fine and dandy as others. But bear in mind, for this a life which I never signed up for. Do you think I love to be unemployed after I spent a minimum of five years studying for a degree scroll in a remote town built of nothing fancy before?

Besides, do you think I enjoy staying with parents and dragged The Hubster along to live together just because I did not manage to get a decent job for now? And do you think I get the pleasure from answering the same sort of questions every time I go back to my in-laws' place? I never asked for a life like that, anyway.

'Back when we were engaged and I just graduated'

Think wisely before you act something unpleasant to others. It is their lives that you are speaking ill of, not yours. You might see them incapable of things you already have in life; which is getting married, getting children, getting top-notch professions and such. But are you aware that everything in life is written by the hands of God?

Don't feel pity for me, or those similar unfortunate people that you see. I really hate things that evoking unneeded sympathy. The only thing we need from so-called fortunate group of people is please quit nosing around us. Yeah, we share this same beautiful world but it doesn't mean we have to share our personal lives with you. No?

Like The Hubster told me, we are two grown-up adults. And we never asked for any single opinion of how we should live our lives. It is time now to stop asking when somebody is going to get married, children, job or sort of questions. Instead of asking them, why don't you ask the Almighty God Himself (well, if only you dare to).

A person does not live the same way like the others, people!

Faith Friday #8: Surah An-Nisa' [4:34]

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'Original Photo Courtesy of GrumpyCats.com'

"Men are guardians of women, because Allah has made one superior to the other, and (also) because men spend their wealth (on them). So the pious wives are obedient. They guard (their chastity) in the absence of their husbands with the protection of Allah. But those women whom you fear will disobey and defy, admonish them; and (if they do not amend) separate them (from yourselves) in beds; and (if they still do not improve) turn away from them, striking a temporary parting. Then if they become cooperative with you, do not seek any way against them. Indeed, Allah is ever Exalted and Grand." Surah An-Nisa' [4:34]

Another beautiful reminder for us, people!

Scent of Sentiment #3: A Strong-Willed 3 1/2 Months Premature

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

 Each time you decide to be irresponsible for unwanted pregnancy, please think of this baby.

For this baby is struggling on his own life just to be born into this world, when all you do are getting unsafe sex which leads to unwanted pregnancy that you despise of. Are you aware that you are responsible for that tiny life inside your womb?

Each time you decide to get an abortion, please think of this baby.

For this baby is holding on his own fragile body with minimal strength just to stay live, when all you do are thinking the quickest way to get rid of your developing baby. Are you aware that you are not God Himself to take away one's life with your own bare hands?

Each time you decide to be ignorant about your pregnancy, please think of this baby.

For this baby's parents believe in God so much that they give their baby a second chance to live with only little hopes to hold on, when all you do are being such an ego with no humanity for stopping your baby to breathe. Are you aware that everyone deserves a second chance even a tiny human fetus?

Always remember that millions of people out there are struggling to get pregnant. Unlike you, they are willing to do anything just to hold a baby of their own. Stop being such irresponsible and ignorant parents who choose to be selfish by letting go their unwanted babies. You can choose to be a noble person, instead.

Be bold and ignore if the whole world hates you for carrying a baby out of wedlock; your baby should not be judged by your mistake. Let they live like they should be at the first place. Give your baby a chance to live for it is truly your responsibility now.

Follow this baby's progress through Instagram @3enjamin5cot or click here for the father's personal website.

Just a friendly reminder to you and I, people!

Penned Down #26: Download 2014 Ikea Malaysia Catalog

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

I had a hectic weekend, and a frustrating one if I must say. However I am not going to elaborate more for it is too personal to be blogged about. What can I say is The Hubster and I are too disappointed with unwanted interfering stuffs into our lives recently. A piece of advice for what it's worth; be reminded for every action is followed by its consequences. So always, always remember that.

On the other hand, I feel grateful for having The Hubster by my side through thick and thin. We were supposed to heading back home after that long, sad weekend when suddenly I spotted The Hubster drove towards the city. I then stopped sobbing the moment I saw IKEA signage ahead. What the heck?

"I thought this should relieve your gloomy days," The Hubster grinned before he made the exit turn.

Man, was he for real? I was actually pissed off, for I was not really in mood for any window-shopping at that time. Plus, what we were gonna do with furniture store's sightseeing at 8 p.m? On top of all, he had to work the next morning and the home journey would definitely take less or more of four hours straight. Pfft.

Unfortunately The Hubster has been my bed-mate for quite too long so he really does know me better than anyone. The moment we stepped inside, every burden I felt earlier was somehow lighted from my shoulders. It was quite odd because my previous hour was spent with sobbing and snivel while the next hour, I was gallivanting with joy seeing all those favorite stuffs of mine.

If you must know, I am the kind of person who goes wild upon seeing duvet cover set or such home decorations ever since I was a teenage kid. I am not quite sure why I am so attached to home decorations compared to other things. It is so mother-types but that's what I really am anyway. Thank Godness for I share this weird passion with The Hubster, too.

Sadly we did not get to grab the meatballs due to freaking long queue (duh, it was Sunday - what should we expect then?). Bought myself some scented candles and stuffs but still, I was feeling over the moon while sniffing around things that interest me. As been expected, we reached home at 1 in the morning but with better mood, of course.

'Courtesy of IKEA Malaysia.com'

Anyhow, if you are like me who loves flipping the online catalog through laptop rather than tablets, you might want to download the 2014 IKEA catalog through my personal link because IKEA website only provides download for mobile application. Last but not least, let us all start imagining our dream house decoration from now on. Bahaha!

Click here to download the free catalog of 2014 IKEA Malaysia.

Day-dreaming the future is the true jolly thing, people!

Penned Down #25: His 33rd Birthdate

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

My days have been quite frantic albeit I am just a staying-at-home wife. Well I had three job interviews in a day and other butt-in stuffs earlier this week which explains a slight negligence in my blog recently. However life goes on, so I'm just gonna do some short-ramblings if you must read this.

Today marks The Hubster's 33rd so yeah, he turns another year older but wiser (yeah, right)! Frankly I did forget to wish him until this afternoon. Not quite myself to forget such important dates so to lessen the guilty feeling, I whipped up an almond chocolate cake (see the recipe here) for his birthday treat this evening.

Unfortunately I did over-beat the meringue so my cake turned out quite flat like brownies. Pfft! So peeps, always remember not to mess up when dealing with meringue batter. Still I forced The Hubster to eat a quarter from his whole deflated cake which of course he could not object at all. Teehee!

To sum up about my birthday boy, one huge thing I always feel grateful to Allah SWT that he is the kind of guy who goes for extra miles just to make me happy. Well of course it comes together with periodically mood swings but hey, I am not complaining. He is the jewel to my plain ring. Bahaha!

'The Hubster before he went out for Charity Run last year (which explained those new shoes worn inside the house). I had to snap this pic at very early morning, though'

Happy Birthday, my Birthday Boy! XOXO

Faith Friday #7: Surah Al-Hujurat [49:12]

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'Original Photo Courtesy of GrumpyCats.com'

“O you who have attained to faith! Avoid most guesswork (about one another) - for behold, some of (such) guesswork is (in itself) a sin; and do not spy upon one another, and neither allow yourselves to speak ill of one another behind your backs. Would any of you like to eat the flesh of his dead brother? Nay, you would loathe it! And be conscious of God. Verily, God is an acceptor of repentance, a dispenser of grace!” Surah Al-Hujurat [49:12]

Another beautiful reminder for us, people!

Penned Down #24: The Ugly Duckling

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

If you browse through my family photo albums, you would definitely see that I am the only daughter who was born with slightly darker skin color tone compared to my other sisters. I don't know why but I guess that's what we mean for diversity in human creations. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself just so to calm my aching heart. Phew.

Still, I could not help but wonder why my other sisters were born fairer than me. When I was at child's age, I always bothered Mom with never-ending questions; which of course included of this one.

"Why am I having dark skin tone than them (sisters)" 

 or maybe this,

"Why I was not born fairer like them (sisters)?"

And Mom would go like, 

"It's okay. You were born darker than them (sisters) because you follow my trait".

 

I swear she would come out with the same relieving line for as often as I could remember. As a child myself, I was quite pleased to have heard Mom's answer. I mean, what kind of little girls who do not wish to partner-up with their mothers in the family? It was more like, 'I am on Mom's team, mind you'. Pfft. So that's what I keep bearing in mind for quite some times.

'Yours Truly with much fairer Annie'

Remember the famous story by Hans Christian Andersen's The Ugly Duckling? I did really growing up with a thought that I would be having the ugly duckling syndrome. At school, I knew I was not that pretty so I had to rely solely upon my personality and brain (for exactly) just because they were all I could afford to have for being unattractive. Well, what a misleading thought at that time. 

I was kinda nerdy in school, anyway. Just when I finished up my high school, I started to dress up and concentrate on more pleasant image. I knew I was not amongst the hot girls so I took hold of my own social life. I did not wait for guys to ask me out like my other friends. So that explains why most of the guys I dated were good-looking included The Hubster. Bahaha! (Okay, kidding).

I always knew what I wanted and I would go to the extends needed as long as it was not immoral. What happens now is that strong will I once hold had lost in between times. I had somehow turned lazy in dressing up or paid attention to what I put on my face. Well yes, being overweight and acne-prone are contributing factors but hey, I hate to be a typical married lady who cares only house chores but herself.

I love The Hubster, and I know he loves me just the way I am. But I refuse to turn into a different person compared to whom he met five years ago. I guess I should relive back the ugly duckling syndrome all over again so I can overcome the unattractive duckling traits now. Only this time I am doing it to regain my once strong-will headed and a bit of my daring confidence which I missed terribly. Let's hope.

Anyone could really turn into a beautiful swan, people!

Penned Down #23: A Skewed View

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

It has been a while since I last penned down a thought. I guess I got too worked up about my skin concern and those reviews lately, hence I was all consumed by just that for the last few weeks. Well everything needs some little time so I hope my skin is, too. I also heard that time heals almost everything thus I am gonna let it heals my skin from now. Teehee.

Peeps, there is simply one thing I want to point out here; which is, do not judge. You might have heard the phrase of 'Do not judge something you do not know' but to me, do not ever judge anything or anyone which either you do not know or you know of. So let's say you claim to know the person or situation very well, but still your view is limited by your own perception.

It is a skewed view anyway. And it is pretty unfair to anyone if I must say. Judging is one of the shallowest ideas that you are superior to another. Truly, only God knows who is superior and who isn't. And who are we to put our judgmental scores on other people when we ourselves are the sinned, humble servants to Allah SWT. Are we brave enough to say that we belong to sin-free groups of people, then?

When we are judging somebody, we are simply judging them based upon what is easy for us and what is difficult for them. We judge based on our perception solely thus it causing us to get a skewed view instead. Every story has its two sides so we might not know the other story involved. This habit of guesswork about another is just pathetic. No?

'Yours Truly with one of our old cars'

Well yes, I used to judge people in all my life and how I regret about it now. Here's a story for example. When I was younger, I used to hear other people despised this one guy for being a bad son to his parents. These people claimed that he did a lot of wrongdoings to his parents and he preferred his wife more than his mom. So then I too, started to despise him and his wife based on what I had listened.

Today, I noticed only one major thing about him. He, who was claimed to be ungrateful (and all that bad traits for a son) is now the one who brings take-away meals for his parents in between his working's lunch hour almost everyday. I am not sure if other people could have seen that but to have judged him based on what I was fed with is simply humiliating. I myself feel ashamed.

Do you notice that when we judge people, we tend to determine ourselves of who deserve our respect and who don't? We simply put our judgment for this or that person is sinned based on the surface evidence but what we don’t see is their efforts to repent. Who allows us to look down on somebody who sinned when we are no different to them? We are also amongst the sinners. Astaghfirullahalazim.

 

When we judge, we ignore our own faults. For if we acknowledged our sins and truly repented for them, we would be silent when another person is mentioned unless it is to say a good thing. And to speak ill behind someone's back is way too shame. We have no idea what their journey is all about. What goes around comes around. Today we blindly judge somebody, later it will be us who get judged.

So I was told that life is karma, people!

Reviews From Heart #3: MooGoo's Acne Cleansing Cream

Disclaimer: This is not a paid post. Everything is based on my honest and personal experience in using the reviewed product with no influences of any third party. Opinion may change from time to time depending on future event.

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

Do you remember how I was in euphoria to have found out MooGoo for my ever so sensitive skin? I really thought I have finally met the Holy Grail for my troubled skin (like, really really). But to my disappointment, my skin has managed to disagree as it always does. It seems like my skin is happy with every other MooGoo's product except the Acne Cleansing Cream. And the most sad part here? Acne is my major skin problem, Mr Moo. Sigh.

'Presenting; MooGoo's Acne Cleansing Cream. Courtesy of MooGoo.my'

Here's to What it Claims (taken from website):

Almost all Acne Creams use Benzoyl Peroxide Bleach. This is why hair will bleach to an orange colour when in contact with most Acne creams. Bleaches are cheap but not the first choice in keeping skin looking young and healthy. Acne is usually around for a short time, but the skin on our face is forever. So we need to take care of it.

Acne has a number of causes, including sebum (skin's oil) becoming rancid as well as bacteria on the skin. This is why an effective cleansing cream, that targets both contributors to Acne using natural ingredients is so much better than bleach in our opinion. That is why we set to work trying to find a solution that was good for the skin.

MooGoo's Blemish Cleansing Moisturiser takes a new approach. It is a cleansing cream that also works as a leave on moisturiser.  This keeps skin healthy and young looking by using a high quality natural cream packed full of anti-oxidants, rather than chemicals. Other parts of the formulation help prevent excess oils on the skin becoming rancid which can be a cause of Acne as well as cleanse the skin of bacteria.

Here's to the No Gimmick Ingredient (taken from website):

  

Water (Purified), Squalene (Olive), Cetearyl Alcohol, Prunus armeniaca (Apricot) Kernel Oil, Vitis Vinifera (Grapeseed) Seed Oil, Simmondsia Chinensis (Jojoba) Seed Oil, Camellia Sinensis Leaf Extract (Standardized Green Tea ECGC), Pantothenic Acid (Vitamin B5), Aloe Barbadensis (Aloe Vera) Leaf Juice, Caprylic/Capric Triglyceride (Fractionated Coconut), Dimethyl sulfone (MSM Organic Sulphur), Helianthus Annuus (Sunflower) Seed Oil, Polysorbate 60 (Food Grade Emulsifier), Polygonum Cuspidatum Extract (Japanese Knotweed), Piroctone Olamine, Hydrolyzed Milk Protein, Allantoin (Comfrey Extract), Whey Protein, Coconut Acid, Palm Acid, Ascorbyl Tetraisopalmitate (Stabilised Vitamin C), Tocopheol (Natural Vitamin E), Citric Acid (Fruit Based pH Balancer), Vanilla Planifolia Fruit Extract, Humulus Lupulus (Hops) Extract. 

'Courtesy of MooGoo.my'

Here's to What I Personally Think:

After experiencing pretty good results with previous MooGoo's MSM Soothing Cream and Milk Wash, I was pretty confident to try its Acne Cleansing Cream which was raved on by lots of beauty bloggers. One thing I was sure; this cream might at least does the same justice to my sensitive skin just like the other two previous products. So I bought with a happy-singing-heart and tried it on undoubtedly.

The first morning after I left applied it overnight, I could definitely see most of new pustules were greatly reduced and some were gone! I was beaming with joy as I thought, I finally got to control my acne issue right now.

So I went on with the cream until the third morning when I suddenly spotted new cystic acne along with rashes all over my forehead and both cheeks. I bit my lip in vexation. Well yeah, my skin was rejecting all over again. Just like what it has done with the rest, which are idling under my bed now.

So you see, this cream really wowed me at first just like what it claimed to be. It is just that my skin is super sensitive as always; rejecting almost everything albeit the product is as mild as for a baby. I do really want to love this Acne Cleansing Cream but I guess this cream is just not meant for me but other people. Sorry MooGoo, but I really love your other products. Teehee.

• Texture & Smell: Pale brownish and rich creamy liquid with typical makeup foundation smell. 
• Absorption Level: Pretty good.
• Moisturizing Level: Pretty good.
• Greasiness Level: Minimal.
• Irritation Level: Above average. It caused my skin to break out in rashes; for my case.
• Visible Result: Pustules are greatly reduced. Skin feels much hydrated than usual.
• Acne Reduction: Yes. But later it caused new cystic acne; for my case.
• Overuse Effect: Might cause more irritation; for my case.
• Retail Price: RM69.00
• Content: 75g
• Where To Purchase: All leading pharmacies (Watsons, Caring etc.)
• Online Purchase: Available Here 
• Repeat Purchase: Will consider.
• Rating: ★★☆☆☆

MooGoo is still the safest choice for sensitive skin, people!

Faith Friday #6: Surah Al-Ankaboot [29:2-3]

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'Original Photo Courtesy of GrumpyCats.com'

"Do men think that they will be left alone saying, 'We believe', and that they will not be tested? We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false." Surah Al-Ankaboot [29:2-3]

Another beautiful reminder for us, people!

Reviews From Heart #2: MooGoo's MSM Soothing Cream

Disclaimer: This is not a paid post. Everything is based on my honest and personal experience in using the reviewed product with no influences of any third party. Opinion may change from time to time depending on future event.

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

As you have been promised, this is another review for MooGoo which I am so delighted to do it anyway! First thing first, I shall list out my skin conditions here so you will understand that I am doing this review based on my own skin tolerance level. Mine is combination skin type: with super sensitive skin and high intolerance to almost everything related to chemical based ingredients. So let the review begins.

'Presenting; MooGoo's MSM Soothing Cream. Courtesy of MooGoo.my'

Here's to What it Claims (taken from website):

This cream is made using the moisturizing base of our Full Cream with the addition 10% MSM (Organic Sulfur) and the removal of Milk Protein. This is the maximum amount of MSM we could add to the cream. Just mention MSM and watch the Naturopaths go nuts about its skin calming properties. 

The cream uses Sweet Almond Oil which is one of the best moisturizing oils for irritated skin due to its essential fatty acid profile. The cream is also fully loaded with other natural skin healing ingredients. These include Allantoin (Comfrey Root Active), Vitamin E, Aloe Vera and Honey.

This soothing moisturizer is intended to calm irritated skin and help return it to a healthy condition. MSM is a natural organosulphur suitable for children and adults and is used for its inflammation reducing properties. MSM has also proved to be a great skin softener and used in anti-aging preparations. The cream is paraffin free.

Here's to the No Gimmick Ingredient (taken from website):

Water (Purified), Prunus Amygdalus Dulcis (Sweet Almond) Oil, Olea Europaea (Olive) Fruit Oil, Squalene (Olive), Cocos Nucifera (Coconut) Oil, Cetearyl Alcohol, Dimethyl Sulfone (MSM or Organic Sulfur), Tocopherol (Natural Vitamin E), Aloe Barbadensis Leaf Juice (Aloe Vera), Allantoin, Piroctone Olamine, Polysorbate 60 (Food Grade Emulsifier), Honey, Apple Cider Vinegar, Humulus Lupulus (Hops) Extract. 

'Also available in 270g jar with extra RM40.00 added. Courtesy of MooGoo.my'

Here's to What I Personally Think:

This is the second product I have bought under MooGoo brand and I am loving it, like a lot! I was actually eying more on its famous Acne Cleansing Cream but then I thought I should first sooth my irritated skin before applying anything on. 

I once read that its Full Cream is great for its high soothing properties for troubled skin. But then it was not available at Watsons so I grabbed this one instead which was another version of Full Cream with addition of MSM and removal of Milk Protein. Unbelievably this cream really does what it talks!

Once I was having seafood allergy reaction and the outbreak left my underarm area so itchy and red skin so inflamed that I was about to cry from feeling too discomfort. I suddenly remember about this cream and its soothing claim so I simply applied it to the affected area. To my relief, the itchiness was gone and the skin redness was greatly reduced in less than half an hour! It was sure not a miracle but I felt like I got one.

• Texture & Smell: White and rich creamy liquid with barely any smell. 
• Absorption Level: Good.
• Moisturizing Level: Pretty good.
• Greasiness Level: Minimal.
• Irritation Level: Minimal.
• Visible Result: Itching and redness in skin are greatly reduced. Skin feels much softer and hydrated than usual.
• Acne Reduction: Minimal. This cream is not an anti-acne cream, mind you.
• Overuse Effect: Minimal. I applied this cream on face continuously during all day. It gave me no outbreaks or cause my skin to be more oily. Just don't overdo the amount when applying it.
• Retail Price: RM59.00
• Content: 75g
• Where To Purchase: All leading pharmacies (Watsons, Caring etc.)
• Online Purchase: Available Here 
• Repeat Purchase: Definitely.
• Rating: ★★★★☆ 

Next review will be on MooGoo's Acne Cleansing Cream, people!

Reviews From Heart #1: MooGoo's Milk Wash

Disclaimer: This is not a paid post. Everything is based on my honest and personal experience in using the reviewed product with no influences of any third party. Opinion may change from time to time depending on future event.

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

Whoa! My first review ever. Finally I have something good to say about when it comes to skincare choices. If any of you are new here, let me rephrase my current skin condition. I am a woman in my late 20s who have been developing some super sensitive skin with high intolerance to almost everything related to chemical based ingredients. And my skin is combination type. So I have opted for organic skincare lately and this is what I found out during the so-called journey (yeah, right)!

 

'Presenting; MooGoo's Milk Wash. Courtesy of MooGoo.my'

Here's to What it Claims (taken from website):

MooGoo Milk Wash uses a combination of 6 different natural cleansers. A small amount of many different cleansers can be less irritating than using one. We also add other ingredients to help skin conditioning. Initially formulated as a face cleanser, we put it in a larger bottle as why should the rest of the body be forced to use something not as good.

We added genuine ingredients (not gimmicks) to prevent drying of the skin. Milk Protein (Casein) is similar to the skin's own protein and helps maintain elasticity.  The natural ester Glycerol Oleate prevents skin water loss and leaves the skin smoother.

Our body wash does not create big bubbles like a synthetic detergent. It washes gently and without drying of the skin. Because it is so gentle it is also a no tears formulation in children's eyes. The milk wash is SLS free.

Here's to the No Gimmick Ingredient (taken from website):

Aqua, Decyl Glucoside (Glucose Based Cleanser), Sodium Lauroamphoacetate, Behentrimonium Methosulfate (Canola Based Detangler), Lauryl Glucoside (Glucose Based Cleanser), Cetearyl Alcohol (Plant Based Emulsifying Wax), Cocamidopropyl Betaine (Coconut Derived Cleanser), Glyceryl Oleate (Skin Conditioner), Coco-Glucoside (Glucose Based Cleanser), Allantoin, Piroctone Olamine, Hydrolysed Milk Protein, Parfum (Phthlate Free). 

'Courtesy of MooGoo.my'

Here's to What I Personally Think:

Do not freak out for this is what I use to carry out my twice-daily face wash routine. It is actually a body wash but it can also be used as a face cleanser in the most gentle way. For your information, MooGoo has its own face cleanser range based on the oil cleansing method. But it was not available in Watsons at that time so I grabbed this one instead. It turned out to be one of my favorite cleansers today. Teehee.

• Texture & Smell: Pearly-white and creamy liquid with barely baby talcum smell. A very gentle cleanser yet.
• Foaming Level: Moderate. 
• Moisturizing Level: Moderate.
• Irritation Level: Minimal.
• Visible Result: Itching skin is gone in instant. Skin feels much softer than usual.
• Acne Reduction: Minimal. This cleanser is not an anti-acne cleanser, mind you.
• Cleansing Effect: Good for light makeup.
• Overuse Effect: Might dry out skin a little bit. Remember to wash your face not more than three times a day.
• Retail Price: RM59.00
• Content: 500ml
• Where To Purchase: All leading pharmacies (Watsons, Caring etc.)
• Online Purchase: Available Here 
• Repeat Purchase: Definitely.
• Rating: ★★★★☆ 

Next review will be on MooGoo's MSM Soothing Cream, people! 

Penned Down #22: Hoarding Habit

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

No, no. Don't get me wrong here. It is never about clutter or such stuffs featured in Clean House TV program (by the way, I'm a hugeee fan of that series). Well my hoarding habit practically involves in lots of bottle and jars with different label of skincare lines. Since I am too desperate in getting decent skin, I had been trialling with many unalike products. When I said 'many', I do really mean it.

You might say I have somehow turned into one of skincare junkies out there; except that all of them never really worked with my skin tolerance. If you ever have the opportunity to bend down and look under my bed, you would see one huge plastic bag contains random skincare stuffs which services were unfortunately terminated. Actually there were two but I gave away one of them so that The Hubster won't be nagging.

Do not judge, however. If you are like me who happens to suffer from sensitive skin and adult acne, then you know how tempted (or desperate) we are to keep trying out diferent products with hopes that they will be the awaited solution to our problems. Like recently, I have decided to change my usual habit preference into organic. I mean, we can never go wrong with natural products. No?

So I bought a few bottles from Botani's combination skin range with a huge hope that they would give my skin any miracle. Bear in mind, this is my first time in trying out organic products so I never really knew what to expect. Unfortunately, they too caused my skin to break out in rashes just like the rest. I was buried in deep frustration but I still took an effort to email Botani Australia to seek for their assistance.

'Items bought or something like these. Courtesy of Nature in a Box.com'

I was glad for their customer service's people is by far the best customer service I have ever dealt with. The lady, named Jenna answered to every question of mine with detailed explanation and honest suggestions. It turned out that my skin might have reacted to lemon scented tea tree oil that were found in the whole set. Thus she suggested me to first change into sensitive skin product range in order to minimize the irritations.

But being me, I would never have the patience to wait for another week to order the suggested products through online store. So I headed to Watsons in Aeon Seri Manjung and grabbed myself another organic skincare line which I have been eying a few months before. It was MooGoo, peeps! MooGoo itself is claimed to be made especially for sensitive skin just like Botani. So a plus point there for me.

The best thing? Finally I could see some positive short term result although it was not really that much (but hey, other products did not deliver any result at all). So yeah, I will come out with reviews about MooGoo so that I can share how happy my skin is now. However let's hope that MooGoo won't be sharing the same bunks with others under my bed, though.

Still hoping for a lasting miracle, people!

Faith Friday #5: Surah Yusuf [9:87]

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

'Original Photo Courtesy of GrumpyCats.com'

"And never give up hope of Allah's Soothing Mercy; truly No one despairs of Allah's Soothing Mercy. except Those who have no faith." Surah Yusuf [9:87]

Another beautiful reminder for us, people!

Penned Down #21: Unfortunate & Fortunate Events

Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),

Two major things happened in a week. First thing first, Mom got struck by mild stroke on Wednesday. It was a shocking thing for I would never have imagined it would happen to her. Mom complained about a sudden numbness through out her left part of body but I really thought it was just because she had too much attention on her crochet knitting activity for the past few days.

But we still rushed to Manjung's emergency room in the evening and boy, we gasped upon hearing that Mom could be possibly struck by minor stroke. Mom was warded that night for observation but the next day, she had to undergo the CAT Scan in Ipoh General Hospital to confirm the doctor's assumption. Unfortunately it was the Thursday's morning when Mom suddenly had a series of serious stroke attack.

'Stroke Signs. Courtesy of Women's Health.gov'

Her left part of mouth was somehow unaligned with the right part and her speech slurred. Mom started to whimper on how her left arm was causing her a great deal of pain. Fortunately The Hubster called for an emergency leave that day so we followed the ambulance to Ipoh to accompany Mom. 

I remember how my hand felt as cold as ice for I was quite panic so I called Yong and Annie to see if they could come home as soon as possible. Nyah on the other hand was immobile; she was counting hours for her labor. So Yong and her family got home with Annie in the evening.

The after result of CAT Scan confirmed that Mom was struck with second level of stroke. We were not sure what caused the attacks but Mom was advised to start eating as healthy as it can be. Her previous medications were also changed according to new prescription. Praise be to Allah SWT for she is finally discharged today. What a hectic week but we caught the good news, though!

'Presenting Umar Nafis Saiful Azri. Born 3.2kg at 2001hr'

We have another addition to the family now. My second sis, Nyah has safely delivered a baby boy yesterday of November 1st, 2013. It seems like the baby will be sharing the same birthday month with The Hubster who was born on November 27th. However I think they won't have a similar zodiac sign though (I think but not really sure, quite lazy to Google up).

So yes, my family is currently having more grandsons instead of granddaughter. One from Yong and two from Nyah. But that's alright peeps. The Hubster and I have already planned to get pregnant with twin daughters to get it balanced one fine day! Bahaha. Soon baby, soon.

'A pair of cute kids from Nyah'

'One good looking son from Yong. Teehee'

Anyhow please keep my mom in your prayers, dear people!