Dear Earthlings (and disguised Spacelings),
There was a time when I was younger and easily heat-up over something. And I found it very tough to forgive anyone who made me feel miserable intentionally. If you should know, I was the kind of person who wishes for someone’s repayment for anything bad he/she had done to me. My once philosophy was simple; if you hurt me then I wish you to be damned as long as you live.
There was also a time when I found it very difficult to forgive and forget. I might forgive someone but then I would never get to forget what he/she has done to me. The worse part would be when the person did not intend to apologize at all. God help me for I vowed that I would never forgive their wrongdoings and they would need to seek me in afterlife for my forgiveness eventually.
Well looking back how I was before and how I am now, I can say it has been quite a lot of changes in me. Not that I have changed 100% for a better person; I do still have the habit of keeping grudge over someone who hurt me. It is not easy for me to get rid all of resentment feelings inside but I have somehow learned to manage it wisely rather than I was before.
You see, The Hubster always said that I am the kind of person who remembers thing quite meticulous yet so visibly thus causing me a hard time to forget any bad events that happened in my life. Well sometimes I did pretend I did not remember such hurting stuffs but down deep, I did and would always commit to memory for most of them even if I did not want to.
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| 'Yours Truly; always keeping grudge' |
Growing up and married, I found myself a tad wiser than before. If I encounter anything that irritates me, I tend to hold onto my patience a little bit rather than rumble at instant. It is like when a shop assistant gets on my nerves, instead of scolding I will go to higher management and lodge my complain. Acting smart will ultimately get us even but acting uncivilized will only demote us.
Just like nowadays, I keep telling myself to be cool about anything that cause me rage. If I found out a group of people gossiping behind my back or ill-mouthing me, I would calm myself and say my utmost gratitude for I would not be sharing their point of sins at all costs. It would be them to face Allah SWT with their sinned acts, not me.
They are the one who should be fear of their wrongdoings toward other people. So instead of wishing them an equal karma, we might want to forgive them. It's cool if we can't forget their acts; we are merely humans for God's sake. But to forgive someone means to admit we are also among the sinners who need forgiveness. There's no need to bother about them. Just sit back and live our lives with a free mind.
What others think of us is none of our business, people!
